I guess it's fitting that she left in the Fall. After 18 years and a little over 328,000 miles. Some of you won't understand this attachment, others know it well - and that's just fine. In October 1993, I leased a 1994 Honda Civic EX Coupe who became known as L.C. for Little Car (and pronounced Elsie). Her name evolved because the person that I was dating at the time had an old Honda Civic wagon we called Wonder Car since it was 4-wheel drive and we used to drive it into snow banks trying unsuccessfully to get it stuck. It just seemed natural that they share part of their name since they were from the same family.
Elsie has protected me for 18 years and even though we were in about 6 accidents over that time (only two were my fault - one very minor, one pretty major), I was never injured. She also never left me stranded in an unsafe situation. If she couldn't go any further for some reason, she found the safest possible place to stop. When her master computer board failed, she managed to get me to work and stopped at the guard booth - we had to push her into the parking lot. When her alternator failed, she made it off the highway to the side of the exit ramp. When her battery had no spark left, it was at home several times - the safest place to be. When her cooling system failed on the highway, we managed to limp off our exit and get to a gas station without any major damage to her engine.
I know her inside and out and it will be very hard for me to see her for the last time. I miss her and all her teachings to me. After this last accident, I had to crawl out of the passenger window into the ditch we were in due to the damage to the driver's side and I still wasn't hurt. No one could understand why I was so upset. "Cars can be fixed", the police officer said. He didn't understand. She wasn't going to be fixed and I knew it.
Elsie told me, "This is the way it's supposed to be." Because the accident wasn't my fault, insurance will give me some money towards another car. If she had just stopped running, I wouldn't have gotten anything... A friend told me a saying that helped a lot. From Elsie: "You were my whole life, and I was just a part of yours." I believe that Everything is Alive and has Spirit, including cars and stones, and buildings. Elsie was herself and she also represented a lot of things to me. That's what I'm working with now. She was part of who I am, so how do I "be me" without her? She was my connection to the past and a constant in my life. Now what connects me and holds my past? She represents the finiteness of Life and the ever presence of Change. Neither of which we can predict - only adapt to and work with. People recognized her and identified her - and I liked that. I could find her easily in a parking lot, too :) Now all cars look the same to me...
So, for now, Elsie has sent me Renty. He is a 2011 Honda Civic with some annoying habits. No power locks, 4 doors, automatic transmission, strange non-intuitive control placements, poor visibility, no cruise control, etc. He is my transitional car - he is very reliable and an attractive dark blue color. I am listening to Elsie as I look for my next car and I'm beginning to be excited to see who she sends me. It won't be the same but then again, she always protected me, so I'm sure she's got a plan in the works...
Thank you, Elsie, for 18 years - almost to the day. October 1993-September 27th, 2011
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Saturday, September 24, 2011
My Speedometer
So I was driving along in my very old car. The speedometer hasn't worked in a few months. The speedometer needle - it's an old car, no digital readouts for us - was pegged at below zero (i.e., it had wildly spun around all the way past 120mph and stuck down underneath 0 when it stopped working.) As I was driving I thought to myself, "Wouldn't it be great if my speedometer worked again? That would be really great. And safer, too. I wonder how much it would cost to fix my speedometer? I don't know much about how speedometers work - I wonder if it's hard to repair one?"
I noticed the needle moving a little bit, just a little wiggle even though it was still pegged below zero. I thought to myself, "It really might be in the best interest of myself and others if my speedometer worked again." Can't hurt to ask, right? There was some magic in the air...
So I said aloud a few times, "Archangel Michael, it would be really great if my speedometer worked again. If it's in the best interest of others and myself, it would be great if my speedometer worked again." At this time, my speedometer needle was wiggling a little bit and then suddenly dropped to read approximately 80mph (I was going about 35mph). The needle stayed in that area and I noticed that it would react opposite to my speed - in other words if I went faster, the speedometer read slower and if I slowed down the speedometer read faster. Despite this strange behavior, I considered this significant progress :)
As I experimented with my gas pedal (slightly :) to see how the speedometer reacted, I said aloud, "Archangel Michael, I know that anything that is in the best interest of myself and others can be manifested. I know that this is possible and I know that if it is in the best interest of myself and others that my speedometer begin working again, that it can happen. I know that I can manifest anything that is in the best interest of myself and others and I thank you for this awareness."
As soon as I said this the speedometer needle dropped to an accurate speed and remained accurate, tracking my speed correctly and reading, at least approximately :), correctly. Wow! Pretty cool in my book... This whole "repair" took about 10 minutes, I would guess - quicker than a mechanic, I'll bet.
So I guess that Spiritual Foraging is also about experimentation to me. What the heck, right? Why not ask an Archangel to fix my speedometer? My learning is to always ask, remember that anything in the best interest of myself and others can become real, and always say, "Thanks!"
I noticed the needle moving a little bit, just a little wiggle even though it was still pegged below zero. I thought to myself, "It really might be in the best interest of myself and others if my speedometer worked again." Can't hurt to ask, right? There was some magic in the air...
So I said aloud a few times, "Archangel Michael, it would be really great if my speedometer worked again. If it's in the best interest of others and myself, it would be great if my speedometer worked again." At this time, my speedometer needle was wiggling a little bit and then suddenly dropped to read approximately 80mph (I was going about 35mph). The needle stayed in that area and I noticed that it would react opposite to my speed - in other words if I went faster, the speedometer read slower and if I slowed down the speedometer read faster. Despite this strange behavior, I considered this significant progress :)
As I experimented with my gas pedal (slightly :) to see how the speedometer reacted, I said aloud, "Archangel Michael, I know that anything that is in the best interest of myself and others can be manifested. I know that this is possible and I know that if it is in the best interest of myself and others that my speedometer begin working again, that it can happen. I know that I can manifest anything that is in the best interest of myself and others and I thank you for this awareness."
As soon as I said this the speedometer needle dropped to an accurate speed and remained accurate, tracking my speed correctly and reading, at least approximately :), correctly. Wow! Pretty cool in my book... This whole "repair" took about 10 minutes, I would guess - quicker than a mechanic, I'll bet.
So I guess that Spiritual Foraging is also about experimentation to me. What the heck, right? Why not ask an Archangel to fix my speedometer? My learning is to always ask, remember that anything in the best interest of myself and others can become real, and always say, "Thanks!"
Friday, September 23, 2011
What is Spiritual Foraging?
To me it is Conversations. Conversations with Nature, Human Guides, Arch- and Other Angels, Ascended Masters, Horses, Dogs, Cats, the Wind, God, Wild Creatures, Skeptical People, Spirit Guides, Birds, Reiki Guides, Other Foragers, Stones, Cars, Feathers, Plants, the Seasons, Guardian Angels, and Myself, among others... Listening and hearing, questions and answers, giving and receiving.
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